Irmaa's Story

i can't express my feeling, so rather than being stressed, i prefer to drop it down here. i must say that he is not that cool or physically handsome. first time i saw him, honestly i don't really have an interest. but when we talk, i think i found something in him, i gues.  I think he is ingenuous, simple, he doesn't beat around the bush and gets straight to the point.  I like him. Not because he's cool or physically handsome, but because I think he's simple. Simple, kind, humble, and wise. I told God that I like a smart man. I want someone more mature and wise than me (technically, I asked for a man older than me), hehe. And more specifically, I said, "Lord Jesus, I want a man who can sing, who's used to joining the church choir, or maybe at least a man who is enjoys take a part in church activities" And BOOM, I found a picture in his instagram an TikTok Profile that shows me that he is. HE IS ! how suprised i am.  That's what attracted me. It mad...

Kupang, 28 November 2025 @Aula El Tari - Prov. NTT I've got a precious lesson learned today.  start form the morning i wake up, i do my activity as usual. when i'm ready to go to my office, my dad was ready to pick me up with him, but i said no thankyou. i had another bussines to do, so i'd choose to go used my motorcycle.  at 9 am, me and my team, we had to do an activate of IKD (Identitas Kependudukan Digital), that is another digital transformation of Indonesian Governance to bringing convenience to inhabitant administration  matters in Indonesia. to do the activate, we only need a smartphone with an enough storage to download the app, an active email, and also wi-fi or internet conection.  as gen-z, it's to much easy, to understand the menu of the aplication, the way to use it, and all the stuff to used it. eventhough at first we might find a problem, but in the end, we will know how to mannage the problem, and make sure that IKD is going well, just like it must ...

 Tuhan Yesus, beta mau. kalau Tuhan mau, tolong bantu beta. 

Katedral Santa Perawan Maria Bogor-2024 I just realized that the blessings of the Lord Jesus are truly extraordinary. far from what humans think. A few days ago, I read a story in my Instagram about a girl who at a young age always tried to proclaim God's word, sing for God, and in several podcasts she said that she wanted to make her life for God. he wants to dedicate it to God. and what's extraordinary is that, in my opinion, many people are grateful for his presence. and in my own words, when I hear the song he wrote, it feels like 'Tuhan Yesus, terimakasih'. But that girl died at a young age, and apparently in his family, after she died, they had lost two daughters in the family. Then, i've just thinking , how hurt her parents were, especially his mother. and again I thought, Lord, how could You bring the deep sadness, and the sorrow among people who always glorify Your name? But then, there was her poadcarst in my Instagram feed who said that she belive in ...

 Lately, i always have a same things that i think about what happen on my life. i always think about, is my life is useful enough ?  specially, in this last 3 months, a lot of things happen on me. my fist experience to make proposal skripsi, this make a lot of mental health issue on me.  i always do something, just thinking that 'I can make it' ; 'I can handle it' ; 'it's okay, it's gonna be fine'. i always think that  i can make anything as well as i want. but it's all gone wrong. that's not going that easly. then i read a sentence on a book that i've bougth, it says "give all your worries to God, He will keep you safe in His arms". in that book, they said that. everythings that happen on the earth, is happen because of God. and if you don't ask to Him, you'll get nothing. so, do not rely on your own strength, for your strength is not because you are strong, but because God's mercy strengthens you. 

Beta rasa semua orang pernah rasakan pasang surut, dan naik turun dalam hidup. tiap orang punya takaran masing-masing, dan punya ukuran kekuatan masing-masing. sering sekali sejak awal, beta rasakan kesusahan itu, dan ternyatan lewat. bahkan sekarang pun sama. rasanya kosong sekali. hampa. kelihatannya sia-sia.  dan ternyata, disaat merasakan kekosongan itu, orang lain berproses jauh lebih cepat. kelihatannya begitu. yap, 'kelihatannya'.  orang lain pikir kamu berproses dengan mudah, dengan gampang, padahal, more than that, there is tears, there is blood, there is more than you have to pay to pass that prosess.  pain, hurt, sad, stress, stupid, felling down, any bad things that happen to you, they don't see that. they don't feel it. they don't know it.  and also, you don't know their feeling, their mind, their pain, their strugrle. you don't even know what they do and how they pass that things.  everybody has their own way. also you. you have your own proces...